When I look in the mirror, I’m actually okay with what I see. It’s the pictures and angles that make me feel so self-conscious. When I’m feeling insecure about my body image, I always remind myself of the following (yes, I pep talk myself):
“Jeanette, this is your body. The one body you were given life into. Love yourself.”
“You work out so hard to feel good and in hopes to inspire those around you. Don’t give up the hard work.”
“Girl you chose this outfit! You look great! Now go on and rock it!”
My best friend is my photographer 90% of the time. Every time she takes a picture of me, I’ve asked “Wait! Is my belly hanging out? Do I look fat?” She rolls her eyes at me and tells me I need to stop asking those kinds of questions. The tone of voice that she takes clearly states that she is very much annoyed with the questions and my lack of confidence.
It’s so easy to consume yourself into a black box of thoughts, but the most important thing to remember is to build the courage to step out of your comfort zone. Let it be a constant reminder that beauty comes in all sizes, ages, genders, etc. Celebrate and praise your own body at all times.
This year, I made two goals for myself. Work out harder than ever and to build confidence. I’ve kept up with both so far. I do have “off” days- everyone does and it’s normal. These kinds of goals don’t just magically grant themselves overnight. They take time. So, trust the path that you’ve created for yourself and trust time. It sounds silly, but I highly recommend the pep talk and making goals for your road to self-love.
Lately, I’ve been in this “tired” phase. Too tired to make an effort on my face, but still making the maximum effort to keep my skin looking great with skincare (if that makes any sense). I’ve been going with the minimal makeup look, and I kind of love it. Why Kind of? Well, because my lash extensions are all gone, and I have those thin lashes you could barely see. Mascara is hardly even visible on my lashes.
Anyway, one I’ve washed my face I’ve been applying The Ordinary products on my face- they have become a favorite brand of fine. The Vitamin C suspension serum stings for the first few days, but my kin has now gotten used to it (it’s supposed to sting, your skin is just adapting to it). The Vitamin C suspension serum has actually reduced my acne scars, has reduced lines on my forehead, and has made my skin baby butt soft! I then apply The Ordinary’s hyaluronic Acid 2% +B5 Serum, which gives me the ultimate surface hydration on my face.
I then add the Red Earth hydrating moisturizer. I actually picked this moisturizer up from Madewell, and figured I’d give it a shot. It smells very spa-like, which I’m okay with. It’s also very light and gentle.
Before applying tinted moisturizer, I add some of Organy’s lash serum in hopes it’ll help my lashes heal after most of my real lashes were tugged off by the extensions. I’ve been using this organic lash serum for about two weeks, and I’ve noticed a subtle change. Full disclosure, I haven’t kept up with applying the serum twice a day. Hope to see better results in a couple of weeks.
The tinted moisturizer that I have been adding to my face is the Dew Skin Moisturizing Coverage – SPF 20 from Beauty Counter. My cousin is a beauty consultant for this brand, and she swears by it. This tinted moisturizer definitely gives me some sort of life on those “tired” days. My skin does, in fact, look dewy and it actually makes my highlighter pop a little more. I would recommend this for any on-the-go girl or for anyone that loves the using very minimal makeup.
Hope you guys enjoyed a little snippet of what goes on my face. I could keep going, but this blog would turn into a chapter. Make sure to check these brands out 🙂
My 27th birthday just passed, and I went into full recovery mode (hence why I’ve been so MIA). I decided to celebrate my birthday with some wine tasting out in Paso Robles. My cousins, friends and I headed out at 6am from Los Angeles on 4/21/18 and arrived in Paso around 8:45am. It was so early for my liking, but trust me I had my Summer Friday’s Jet Lagged mask on the entire time.
As soon as we arrived into Paso Robles, I was in complete awe. The scenery is beautiful beyond words. We stayed in a motel (YES I said it- a MOTEL) and it was the cutest motel I’ve seen thus far. I recommend a stay at Farm House Motel if there’s any curiosity in spending a weekend out in Paso Robles. They have a cute little garden area where we popped a bottle of champagne in celebration of our fine weekend ahead of us.
Our wine line tour bus picked us up at 10:40am and took us on our way to 5 wineries. Long story short, I had an amazing time tasting every wine on the tasting menus. We stopped to have lunch (which we packed ourselves) at the Eberle Winery. We sat outside and enjoy the weather and the scenery.
There were so many photos taken from this trip, I wish I could share them all. I needed this trip. It was very good for my soul. I laughed so much and created new memories with my gal tribe. I wanted to share my outfit details with you before I close out. I wore a cute cut out midi dress from Express and A New Day Sandals from Target. I paired up the outfit with my YSL clutch, Persol sunnies, and a Kollectin ring.
Hope you guys enjoyed my synopsis of a good wine weekend getaway.
I recently took up a discount from Mikasa Beauty that I could not pass up on. I got myself a set of brushes, and it’s about the best brush set I own. My mother has been working at Merle Norman Cosmetics since I could remeber, and brush sets or makeup have always come my way anytime I ask for it, so as you could imagine- I have a ton of face brushes.
I love the lightweight feathery feeling from the bristles. These soft bristles make my makeup look airbrushed. Another key point to these brushes is that it doesn’t leave behind any loose bristles on my face. I originally packed my brushes up in my gym bag, so I could use them while getting ready for work in the mornings, but I’ve found myself using my Mikasa Beauty brushes more than expected. They have become part of my everyday use, and I love it.
For the past few months, I’ve incorporated my workouts into my morning schedule. I set my alarm for 5:00am – snooze it the first time around and sleep a little more. Ten minutes later my alarm goes off again and I spend a good 10 minutes tossing, turning, and grunting. I eventually force myself out of bed. Being that I pack for my day the night before, I just change into my work out clothes, tie my hair up, brush my teeth and then head out the door.
Once at the gym, I try to get in an hour and a half of weights and cardio. I drink a gallon of water per day, so I sweat A LOT. Sometimes, I feel like I’m the only one in the gym that’s pouring and dripping sweat. I can taste the salty sweat dripping down from my face, YUCK!
After a brutal work out, I get my things together and jump into the shower. One of the products that have become part of my morning routine is FRÉ. I have to credit my monthly IPSY bags for introducing me to this amazing product.
FRÉ is formulated to nurture your skin after sweating. It contains Argan oil, which you can feel as it hydrates and restores your skin. I’m pro any product that hydrates my skin and gives me a natural glow. I definitely recommend this to all my ladies that take their workouts and skin seriously.
“FRÉ specializes in combating workout-induced skin damage and the signs of aging accelerated by the combination of sweat, intense exercise, sun, pollution, and other environmental factors.” ShopFRÉ.
Once you go Dr. Jart+ you never go back. Well, that’s the case for me. I’ve been in love with this color correcting treatment ever since I saw a raving review on Sephora’s website. I’ve used every last scoop there is in the jar. When wearing without makeup, it gives me a vibrant natural glow. When I do apply makeup, it gives me a flawless – camera ready- look. The best part about this product is that it contains Broad Spectrum SPF 30.
So, what made me pick this product? At the time, I would get red blotches on my face- especially after a hot shower. After applying foundation, I would still visibly see the redness. Dr.Jart’s color correcting treatment added extra coverage – a natural one. I also had visible dark circles under my eyes and I hated how tired I looked in photos. After a applying the color correcting treatment under my eyes, it helped minimize the appearance of my dark circles (with concealer on top of course.) I also noticed that the treatment worked as a great primer.
How I use my Color correcting treatment:
After I’ve washed my face, applied toner, vitamin C + hyaluronic acid, and light moisturizer- I then apply Dr. Jart’s color correcting treatment all over my face while adding a little more care to problem areas. After that skin/beauty regime I feel picture perfect 😉
Sweaty palms, teary eyes, there’s vomit on her sweater already…. (maybe mom’s spaghetti). She’s nervous, but on the surface she looks calm and ready. YES. I totally just switched Eminem’s rap around to talk about my eating disorder. BULIMIA.
When did it start?
I was a junior in high school. I had faced body image issues ever since Kindergarten- when my teacher poked fun at me for eating two slices of pizza at my age. I did dancing as a sport for years, but I couldn’t understand why the other girls around me looked petite, and why I was taller and a little more filled in.
In the beginning, I immediately started losing weight. In 2009, my sister noticed that my clavicle bones were actually noticeable. A couple of friends at the time noticed that my big butt had pretty much disappeared. My disorder lasted for a year and a half. Once I got to college, I let go of my nasty little habit for a bit and gained DOUBLE the weight. I was at my heaviest, 170lbs!
After what I thought was a horrible breakup back in 2011, I started purging yet again. Only to realize that this time, I wasn’t losing anything. Something that people don’t understand is that bulimia isn’t skinny nor fat. It’s an eating disorder that prevents weight gain. It’s a feeling of being out of control during binge-eating episodes.
I was always feeling agitated, so I started throwing in intense workouts in the mix as well as diet pills. At age 24, I was down to 140 lbs., but looked insanely tired. It was not attractive at all.
When did it end?
To be honest, I’ve never really idolized anyone for their body type/image. However, I battle eating disorders every day. Over time, I’ve gotten better…. but I’m afraid the thought is still always lingering. It will always be a part of me. However, I’ve been “free” of purging for months now.
My frustration now is that I work out twice as hard, but can’t shed the weight off. I guess what’s important to remind myself of is that I am in fact strong. I work out to be stronger- mind + body.
I have bad dating juju. However, I totally see how my body image addiction has an effect to my dating life and relationships around me. My relationship with running/working out, is a full commitment and I’m totally proud of it.
What does freedom mean?
It doesn’t mean perfection. It doesn’t mean I’ve mastered my way out of bulimia. I just have a better hold/control of myself.
I’m hoping to get the courage to write about my insecurities to help other women who face body image issues. It’s important to find your inner strength and lead a healthy lifestyle. Easier said then done, but baby steps are always a start.